As women, we are often tasked with taking care of our loved ones, and we usually do it without even considering if we are really 'able' to do it-we just do. We are nuturers and caretakers by nature. We will give until we don't have anything else to give. I find myself in this spot often, and wonder how I even got here, I am a pretty aware person. How is it that I chose "FOCUS for my one little word for the year, so that I would FOCUS on myself and I find myself drifting away from that-that's crazy! Time to change lanes!
I am reading Brene Brown's Gift's of Imperfection-letting go of who you think you're supposed to be and embrace who you are. In the vernacular of my home state- HOLY SMOKES! I am a firm believer in being open. That is not to say that I always see what is right in front of me, sometimes I seem to get in my own way, but I do make a conscious effort to remind myself that the act of being open, always benefits me. As I write this I am feeling that I am on the verge of a "unraveling" (Brown describes unraveling as a time when you are challenged by the universe to let go of who you think you are supposed to be and to embrace who you are). At this point of my life, I am surrounded by challenges, and feeling a bit beat up by life circumstances, and know that it is crutial that I am loving and gentle with myself thoughout the process (something, I'll admit is a bit of a challenge in itself) But, I also know, I don't like the way not being loving and gentle feels inside of myself. So as I embark on this journey, I know that I am ready to do the work and ready to take this time for me. I am so excited about the prospect of spending this time with me, I am a pretty amazing girl. Here's to daring greatly!